Thursday, May 28, 2020

THE CORONA TIMES!

The pandemic started,
brought with it a sense of insecurity
confused it just glared,
at everyone's immaturity

how could one judge
its way of mortality
too soon too fast
here now and gone then
corona was thy name,
COVID 19 they christened!

how could we know
its way of spread
too early too vast
from one to many
here this moment
moved to another zone, another second!
from the bat to the lab
all the theories flew!

with the upsurge so high,
what did we learn
what did we buy?
of lessons of handwashing
and with sessions of social distancing
didn't we all not just recover our senses
of breath, of open airs,
of outdoor scares and indoor chores

didn't we all observe and experience
so much more about human nature?
such fragile souls, much fragile egos
shattered houses, battered spouses
broken homes, bruised relationships
where one wanted care and comfort
others just gave criticism and condemnation
where one needed approval and acceptance
others just gave refusal and resent!

derogatory and stigma became the norm
when they just seeked some hugs, cozy and warm
when they didn't want to get tagged just as a survivor
but wanted to play the role of a brave warrior
all they could do was pinpoint
the idiosyncrasies, the individuality
which had the larger picture in mind
not just the concern of the daily grind!

the "lockdown's got talent" became another game
to show off to the world
of the cooking skills, of the hobbies
you never had time for,
as the money minded us,
just ran the rut!
Instagram and facebook,
Tiktok and YouTube,
all flooded with pictures, videos and emotions
either saree challenges, new recipes,
new artworks and dance moves!

but who really cares?
weren't we supposed to cook, clean
keep it all together
even in the dirty routine?
and even if we did,
why are we running the rat race
in the period of lockdowns and quarantines!?
what do we want to prove and to whom
what you shall do after this ends,
and what you did before,
if it isn't starkly different
from the good that became the best
and the bad that didn't become the worst
in the long run, will it really matter!?
if this was to keep the world together,
let's keep it sane to bare this cold weather
to hold it close, and say no! we shall win!
then we have already won it!!

the healthcare workers and police hustled,
but still the crowd bustled,
with essential services on point
still long ques, supermarkets lined!
milk and grocery took the chime
almost unacknowledged in the daily grime
instead of the batman and spiderman suits
superheroes now wore PPE's
keeping their white coats at bay
they still saved lives,
they were not caked faces, no longer the role models,
providing entertainment on the television
nor were they saving the world as promised in their movies!
the world clapped, danced to celebrate these frontline warriors,
but alas! some didn't even let them have a coffin, a grave!!
their service to humanity was par excellence,
but what they got in return was no more than resentful!
didn't they deserve dignity in death
if not just violence at workplace?
how much do they suffer in silence
to make your life one that of minus the sirens!?

"foreign return" was no more a fab statement
getting them back became mandatory
corona or no corona,
the nation thats named "Bharat"
accepted them all with welcoming arms!
after several rescue missions for brave warriors
they brought back daughters and sons who had migrated from their own motherland,
or were travelling around the world,
without questioning their loyalty
of those who had left forever and
without a doubt for everyone who had put
their hard earned money to trot the globe
when we didn't think past these barriers
some made it about religion
the nasty game of politics they say!
divide and rule they shriek!
the migrants were no better
providing cheap labour to earn their bread and butter
got treated step motherly even this time,
when there was vande bharat mission to rescue the elite
we ran shramik express to move them home
shramik they were in true sense
they toiled for their paapi pet!
and toiled to get back to their own homes too
on days got sprayed with hypochlorite solution
as if the virus reeked from their bodies!
other days walked, cycled,
or hid into trucks in multiples to reach a place called home.
"marna hai toh ghar pe marenge" they said
such was their tragedy,
that they feared not death
but they feared not seeing their loved ones,
one last time, if alas! the chinese virus struck them!!
being 'atmanirbhar' was their style always
the "global become local" was their tagline!

anyways this shall pass too
thought the survivor and the warrior
with no time to spare
not a tear to shed!
'cuz to make the world a better place
they ought to be stronger, together
they ought to teach mankind
that there ain't no religion higher than humanity
no place as sacred as fresh morning air,
no better heart and soul than that of a lover,
no greater prayer than that of the caress of a mother!
no stronger arms than that of the father who slogged all life,
no rock solid support of the friends that always belonged and cared!

so let us belong to this earth,
as if it were family
as if the survival of every being mattered
human or animal, big or small,
however the religion, the caste, the race,
the colour, the beauty, the grace!
let us take care of nature and its fury
as if it were here to stay
they say there is silence before the storm
lets say this is the chaos before the peace!
lets unsettle a little bit
with the masks and quarantine
to ease into a better tomorrow
of cures and vaccines
to erase the dark era of this pandemic
into a future full of hope
and a life not so tragic

but a bit more poetic!

Wednesday, January 30, 2019

Found Love for eternity and beyond!


And the year just zapped by,
The last blog post in January 2018...
I never thought 2018 would be 
such a meaningful, unexpected, happy year ahead!

There was this time i was hopeless,
I felt i was astray,
I took the day as it came,
& every day i said Carpe Diem!!

I started finding meaning to life,
Returned back to my loves...
Writing, Reading & Dancing,
The promise i had made to myself seemed coming true!

I found a part of me back
was on a journey of self recovery,
Hale and hearty,
Happy and ready to party!

And one fine day you happened,
Initially i wasn't sure if we would click,
Unsure and confused,
I thought lets give us a chance!

The chance i took was a leap of faith
Amongst all the matrimony chaos
I suddenly found peace
Like the puzzle of a jigsaw falling into place!

Something inside me, told me, it was right,
Even though it would mean, to move mountains..
Deep in my heart,
I still knew something was definitely right!

In the coming time, 
You dismissed all my doubts,
You proved, that you meat what you said,
That you loved and you cared!!

Everyday since then has been sunshine,
I won't say we don't have bad days,
But they have only led us to more and more love
And a deeper understanding of each other!

Surprises and love arrived in small parcels
for both of us,
it became a way of staying connected
When phone calls turned into video calls,
When we craved to see each other after a hectic day
and felt refreshed with conversations,
that would fill the void of distance and time!
There has never been a dull moment,
There has never been an uneventful day!

After 7 months of knowing each other,
Even though the time,
we have spent together is negligible...
I am so sure i want to spend
the rest of my life with you!
And with forever beginning in 10 days..
I know i have found
My love for eternity and beyond in you!!

P.S : love you to infinity and back! ❤️❤️❤️



Tuesday, February 20, 2018

2017: the year of the lost and found!

2017: the year of the lost and found..
So much crying, laughing and emotional dope!!
Thought it could be the most hopeless new years night ever!
But then it all changed...
The year began with a bang!
As the night turned from dull moonlight
To the first morning sunshine of 2017
The day began with the saga of ‘lost’ keys..
The week ended with the happiness of ‘found’
Whether it was just the keys or a new person..
In me or someone else,
It all felt good
Whatever stopped me from it..

I stopped it and let myself go with the flow…
I knew it would harm me..
But the heart prevailed over the mind!
As always the stupid me!
Thus began the saga..
Of another ‘lost and found’
I lost myself to an emotion I love the most..
And found myself a new me..
The new year..
The new ride…All felt so good!

Also, professionally was a high time,
Competitions, conferences..
All wins and no losses here too!
Boosted my confidence by leaps and bounds!!
Alas! Lost some most important documents,
But found it the very next day!!
As if the universe knew
That this year is mine,
And whatever I had lost…
Had to get back to me! Had to be found!!
I thought my luck was shining…
Indeed it was!
Like there was nothing left to lose..

And I let my heart continue its ride,
But I should’ve cut it off earlier…
Cuz in the end again I lost!
Before I had found enough!
Was I wise to even invest myself again…
To this kind of lost and found?
Was it true emotion or just fakeness all around!?
Never found the answer to that then..
But as time passed,
I found this loss,
Was a beginning to another great find..

My precious friendship,
With some lovely people around!
And my strong resolve to get healthy and fit!
And might be
This is the kind of found
Better than any loss!!
These sweethearts helped me
to adapt to my inherited loss..
made me feel more worthy!
and we spent so much time together,
happy, sad and learning..
on our way to continue,
my phenomena of lost and found..
in terms of  people and experiences!
then came the break time
we took a trip together..
to god’s own country,

thought it would help me,
to find a new me..
but I guess the pain of loss
had seeds in that country
and all that I could appreciate
was its beauty…
but not my own!!
it reminded me of a few scars I shouldn’t have revived!
coming back to my city that never sleeps..
countless nights spent crying,
insomniac ones, crazy overthinking, overeating days
nevertheless, soon work became enough
to keep the devils workshop busy!

Again I gave myself another break..
a forced and official one though,
from the routine schedule,
to another gruelling schedule!
from juggling between,
the rural urban postings…
and decorating my old house new!
revelling in the beauty of nature
to the developing of ideas..
of a dream house into a reality!!

this was another kind of lost and found,
trying to lose out on some memories..
while finding a few new!!
suddenly out of the blue..
found some lost clothes as well
this gave a sign..
as all lost things have been found
in the year that has passed by..
I will just find myself again too!!
And just when I thought that this was enough..
as the year was about to end..
expected nothing more of these lost and found..

came another big unexpected loss!
the pain of this was the maximum!
superseded all losses of the year!!
I pondered,
Was I really lucky then with the lost and found??
If I couldn’t find the person back
that was like my godfather,
my guiding light, another family..
I realised that this struggle,
has to be fought alone now,
and might be this will help me
find, discover my superpowers!!

So now as I stand at the brink of 2017…
I hope and only hope to find,
myself in a better frame of mind…
A better vision as taught by my lost teacher!
A better person as I always wanted to be!
A better daughter who can take better care of her ageing parents!
A better friend to the people who have been there for me!
A better year in terms of love and people!
A better experience than the current year!
A year full of pursuing hobbies i love..
travel, dance, read and write more...
May 2018 be less of lost and more of found!
All wishes and desires fulfilled...
And of happiness unbound!!

Friday, January 6, 2017

2016,the year in reminiscence

Being a year full of amends,
the year 2016 ends...
Made all the right choices
to make my life picture perfect!

From being strong and stubborn
to select my speciality subject..
From being dicy and doubtful
to put my love luck at test!

From trying to create a new persona
at a new place with new faces..
To maturing the doctor in me
with daily assesment of so many varied cases!

The past year has been
The year of new beginnings
All good and steady!
All so beautiful!!

From loving too much, too fast!
to giving my heart some new lessons...
From renewing the writer in me
to giving myself new fitness goals!!

It has made my bonds
with my old friends stronger!
The new friends i have chosen
have made my life easier...

I have no regrets whatsoever
'coz the decisions i took
the actions i executed
were all well thought of
a measured balance of my heart and mind!

It has indeed been
a beautiful year in reminiscence...
The memories it has given me
will remain in my heart forever!
The lessons it has  taught me
i shall forget never!!
With its no-nonsense nature,
it has enriched me as a human further!

2013 got worse
2014 was worst
2015 brought hope
2016 fulfilled some dreams
Now all the hopes and expectations
are pinned on the upcoming year!
2017 you better be better
'coz better is an understatement
I only want the bestest out of you!!



Sunday, March 15, 2015

We have had history

Yes we have had history together
But i wouldn't like it anymore
We have faced rough weather
But i would like to stop it right here
I want to keep my past in the past
Cuz thats where its supposed to be
And move ahead with a speed lightening fast
Cuz thats where i am supposed to be
I don't want to be in a space
Where its all about you
I don't want to be in a mess
Where you don't even ask me a "how do you do?"
I don't want those shackles to be my master
And let your demons scare me
I don't wanna care for you hereafter
And be the carefree soul i was and still want to be!
Its been a while that i have been pondering
About all plans i made, all dreams i saw
When you came along
And the world seemed a sweet singsong
And now i am lost wondering
If i loved you, was it my crime,did i break a law!
If you didn't want to stay
Why did you even express a desire
And let my world astray
Where i killed myself with a burning fire
When i cried nights long
For the reason seemed irrational
And the season so burdening,
Evrything looked confrontational
Today i have moved on,
Made peace with me,my heart and your presence
But sometimes even your shadow frightens me
For i might fall for you again
For that is my worst fear, amd if it comes true
All those memories will come unguarded, uninvited
And again i will be lost on a journey without a destination
Again i would be doing things without a purpose or a goal
So, i now love darkness,
I now love being distraught
I now love not to love anyone
I now love not to meet people
I now love loneliness
I now love not to share my happiness,
I now love not to share my grief
I now love not to express
And sometimes i feel like pleading to you,
To please leave me alone..
I know our friendship is precious for us
But just give me some time to readjust
It might be easy for you to not feel anything
But it isn't that simple for me to get over with
this is a chapter of life I want to keep closed for now
Might be I will flip throught it sometime later...
Might be then i will take it as a learning lesson &and feel better...
So just let me be my way for a while
Until,
I find a way back into happines
I find a way back to myself...



Sunday, July 20, 2014

The being twenty-something blues!

You know you’ve hit the blues
When everything seems out of control
And you don’t even have a clue!
Most of us from the twenties would associate
With this phenoma that I call
“The being twenty something blues”
The mind is too confused…full of questions,
Seeking answers to each of them but finding none!
Be it your education, job, love, life…
Everything in general seems screwed!!

There are times,
When you just keep on pondering…
What are you made for? Or what is made for you?
Maybe you want everything!
Maybe you want nothing!!
To be or not to be is the big question
To do or die such is the situation!
When gloomy days lurk ahead
When depression ensues unsaid!
When everything done is in despair
When all seems totally beyond repair!
The future seems bleak
The present seems weak
The past has passed
Many memories of it missed!
                                                   You feel alone…        
                                                   You feel nobody is mine…


You want to live the present moment…
You want to make it work to your advantage…
But you don’t know how!
When you want to act your age
But all you do sometimes is cry like a child
You can’t express the mess in your head
For the fear of being judged “silly” and “weird”
You judge yourself too much
Always think of self as “small” and “little”
Your ideas are big. thoughts revolutionary
You want to be someone…with fame and money
An actor, A director, A dancer, A singer
A writer, A doctor with big degrees and name!
But the times and finances are not much supportive
And things seem not going as planned, falling out of place
Coz education is priority,
All other hobbies achieve the status of minority!


It’s a time when even parents stop asking questions
Co’z you aren’t a teen any more
They want you to self analyse and score
All the goods and bads
Of the decisions you take
All the pros and cons
Of the mistakes you make
Their glaring looks,
Their baggy eyes,
Their drooping shoulders,
Their dried-up skin
All make you realize
The need for being responsible
Coz the tender seeds they had sown
Are now trees full grown!


It’s a time when acceptance and expectance seems ruthless
Be it by friends, your someone special or even a spectator!
When they love you, you feel like his highness!
When they ditch you, you feel hopeless,
It’s a time when rejection and failure seems unacceptable
So much so that the success of those who have moved ahead
Makes you believe you’re worth nothing and can’t do anything
Makes you feel so paralysed, that it saps out all your energy
It’s a time when you have to make the most important decisions of life…
Be it education, career or marriage..
When you don’t want to study further and are coaxed to…
You feel like Ranbir Kapoor from “wake up sid”
When you don’t have job and are desperate to get one…
You feel like the farmers from vidarbha praying for that one drop of rain!
And when you can’t get married to the person you love…
You feel like “har kisko nahi milta yaha pyaar zindagi me…”
The transient fleet of emotions
Makes you even more vulnerable!!!


Amidst this trouble..
Amidst this rubble..
Is the struggling you
Trying to figure out
What is that’s going wrong
What you need to do…to be strong
What will make you happy
What will help you break the anarchy
You know you need to take control
And steer clear of
What are your priorities
What are your preferences
Stop being a choice
Give all your thoughts a voice!


It is this time when you have to stand up for yourself
Co’z nor your parents neither anyone else
Completely can sense
The caught up you…
As you appear calm outside
But enmasse a storm inside
Co’z these aren’t silly problems of teenage
Or some psychiatric fits of rage
It is a fight deep down
Between the id, the ego and the supergo
A war to balance your life…
It’s a phase when you realize
                                                           Only you will be held responsible
                                                           For the consequences of your actions
                                                           Only you will be judged by your demeanour


This phase is the dirtiest
But once you overcome it will be the mightiest
Coz when you look back…
All mistakes made will be laughed off…
Will be seen as small hurdles to reach your destiny
All those who thought unworthy of you will be written off…
Will be seen as critics who helped you be sane mentally
All the right decisions will be applauded
All the achievements will be celebrated
All the hurt and pain
Won’t seem in vain
They will be glorified as your best teachers
All the distraught
Which you fought
It will be revered as your best preacher
Coz many a times there awaits a rainbow after the rain…
And there is no night which ain’t followed by sunshine!!!

Thursday, May 15, 2014

GARMI...offo...isse daant ke bhagao! :P

The temperatures are soaring 
The weather is so boring!
Ceiling fans don't stand a chance
Nor is the season apt for romance
The deadly heat gonna kill us it seems
The month of May is no way
To get rid of it by any means!
The thirst never quenching
The humidity unending!
When nothing else seems to be the answer
And Nimbu paani is the ultimate saviour!
With the elections gone 
Load shedding is once again on!
Always the one to get step motherly treatment
The suburbs cry for some timely betterment!
When the sun dares you to come out of your comfort zone
The sticky dirty clothes make u moan!
The Air conditioners achieve God-like status
The bathroom showers seem to be comforters emeritus!
With all this garmi giving so much of pain
And the haapus marketing getting all the gain
People feel pinched, people feel burnt
With everyone around tanned,the aam junta learnt
Its not just the season
But the scenario which is the reason...
From the dance of democracy
To the ruins of bureaucracy
Everything seems worse than global warming
Its the pockets, the hearts that are burning
And not just people's skin!
Surely to cure all this we need a jin!!
For me the jin is the magical monsoon 
Like an oasis in the dusty sand-dune!
The cool breeze, the wet soil...
Which makes all the bitter feelings recoil
Transforms the political wave
Makes everyone behave...
Transcends the soul,
Makes every heart go rock and roll!
When kanda-bhaji and a cup of chai 
Is all that you need to get high!
The monsoons come with their own set of problems
But nonetheless the mother earth blossoms
With all the groaning toads coming out of hibernation
But some lovely chirpy birds coming too to your location
The puddles of water aamchi mumbai is famous for
And it wont get cured even this year i am sure
But this lightening, the thunderstorm
Lets you stand and stare 
Makes you warm...
And ends the deadly garmi nightmare!
Simply gives a much needed break to mumbaikars
Who are otherwise all time busy workers
All the greenery, all the heavy showers
Rejuvenates all your superpowers!!
The garmi ki ghamodiya get washed away
Keeps all your sour mood swings at bay!
Such is the charm of the monsoons
Takes away all the fear of sunny afternoons!
So these horrible summers are hated! 
And the lovely rains are awaited!!